just two more years.
i hate it that im still dependent. if it’s not for the two years i have left in college, i’d leave this place in an instant. build my own life and earn a living. whenever i go back to this post, this will remind me to work hard so i could be the only one in control with my life.
i don’t care if it hurts, i wanna have control.
-radiohead
someone told me once not to listen to sad songs when youre sad. “it will just make you sadder.” but listening to sad songs is the only way of expressing my sadness. i am not the type who cries on another’s shoulders. i am scared of sharing my feelings. so when i do listen to sad songs it for me perfectly describes the sadness that i feel. and in that i feel at ease because i feel understood.
craving for space. it’s the feeling you get when you just want to be alone. just to have your own place where it feels like an escape. but in truth, it isn’t the desire to be alone with all your thoughts and all your worries because let’s face it, you are your own worst enemy. you can’t escape your mind. craving for space is just a way to overcome the feeling of loneliness.
